Blogging isn't something that comes easily to me. I have never written a diary as I start with incredibly good intentions but forget to update on a regular basis and then the posts have no relevance short of being a brief reminder as to how I was feeling on a particular day (and the drunken ones are never good to read back). The only caveat that I have to my opening statement is the time that I, at the tender age of 35, was made redundant and decided to join the circus (yes you read correctly, Join The Circus). This was a massive change in my life and I found the easiest way to reflect on the trip was to write a “Diary” which I could then share on MySpace with all of my friends back home. It was a cathartic experience, one that allowed me to digest everything that was throughout that time and also gave me something to look back on and “remember”.
So now we come to this blog. What is the purpose of it any why would I want to do it. I am not vain enough to think that my thoughts and feelings will be particularly interesting to anyone else, or that people want to know what I think. I think that the answer to that question is twofold,
1) I really enjoyed the catharsis that I mentioned before, the chance to take some time and reflect. Although I have been taking pictures for what must be almost 20 years now, I have come to a place in life where I am too busy to do as much photography as I would like to. My wife and I were recently discussing this and we have both come to the conclusion that we need to find a balance between working like a dog and doing the things that we enjoy. However as I get older I seem to remember less of the small details and so I thought that as part of this “re-finding” of the things we enjoy then I would start to write things down. Charting my successes and also failures at rediscovering the love of image making.
2) There are something’s that I read, or connection that I make between ideas and abstract concepts that excite me and I think that maybe other people will either like the connection/information or make their own
But why go public I hear you ask, well I think that the simple reason is that by declaring to the world (or at least the 3 people and a dog listening) then I am making a commitment to do this. A promise to myself that I will find at least a few hours a week to look at the world through the lens and find a moment to capture. Also sometimes I can “live in a bubble” and I think that by making the blog public then my thought process can be challenged which will help me to grow.
So well done for getting through the essay and staying awake and I hope to get at least one of these up a week.