Putting things off


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Putting things off

19 Jan 2021 10:54AM   Views : 732 Unique : 415


Do you procrastinate? Do you keep finding excuses not to do something that you know is inevitable, like tax returns or visiting the dentist? Often, it’s not the logic of sorting something out that convinces, but a friend saying that it’ll be ok: anecdote is more convincing than any quantity of favourable statistics.

And that’s why I spent three and a half years with the dubious delights of ISC before having an operation to resection my prostate. By the end of that time, it was entirely clear that pills weren’t going to make the difference, and at the end of June 2019 I went into hospital for what was due to be a night or two of recovery after the operation. On the morning, I’d got a drippy nose and a feeling of a cold coming on: a discussion with the anaesthetist suggested that the additional risk of going ahead was small, but that I might have an extended stay in hospital if the infection developed.

My day is blank from around 9-30 until 3-30, when I realised that I was still alive. As some sensation returned, I realised that the transfer onto the recovery trolley (or whatever it was – I wasn’t taking much notice) had twisted my back, and it was distinctly painful. Control of my limbs wasn’t sufficient to move the couple of inches needed for relief, and then a wonderful nurse asked me if I wanted something for the pain, and it got better. Clearly, grunts meaning ‘my back’s killing me’ are indistinguishable from those meaning ‘that operation really hurts.’

Of course, the infection developed, and I had the benefit of a 6am chest X-ray to make sure there was nothing going wrong in my chest, and intravenous antibiotics for three days. And on the fourth day, they let me out. While it took a good month for anything resembling stamina to return, the operation was a big success, and I wish I’d had it done as soon as possible…

And that’s the point. There will always be someone telling you that cleaning the sensor of your camera will wreck it. That applying a herbal poultice to the screen will sort things out. Or that it doesn’t make any difference. But ignore the cranks – go with the mainstream unless conditions are very unusual!

18 months on, I feel 20 years younger (in most ways), and I’m still a fan of the NHS, which is full of people who know what they are doing, and want to help people. And you can find my weakest period of posting images on EPZ back then – four days with only a mobile ‘phone to shoot, edit and post with, and very limited subject matter provide an all-time low for me.


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dudler Plus
20 2.1k 2048 England
19 Jan 2021 10:56AM
The header's the first picture I took after emerging from hospital: the footer is Kym Williams at SS Creative Studios, a couple of weeks after my release - the first model photographs - so obviously I'd recovered enough to drive a bit.
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19 Jan 2021 12:07PM
I used to merely crastinate, but after a while became so good at it I became a procrastinator...
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kaybee 19 8.7k 28 Scotland
19 Jan 2021 12:15PM
I thought you still managed to find a pretty woman to shoot while in the hospital.

After a leg operation I managed to cross my ankles while in hospital in the middle of the night. Unfortunately I couldn't uncross them and was in agony when the Matron (yes - it was that long ago when the still had Matrons) was doing her rounds with the nurses. She noticed my predicament and gently uncrossed my ankles with a word. I have never been so grateful.
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mistere Plus
10 36 8 England
19 Jan 2021 12:39PM
If it's got to be done, get on with it. Smile. Ah, that reminds me....back in a while Blush
ZenTony Avatar
ZenTony Plus
7 28 7 United Kingdom
19 Jan 2021 2:39PM
I am supposed to be working (I work for myself from home); but here I am reading your blog !
Maybe a coffee before I start again.
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20 2.1k 2048 England
19 Jan 2021 4:55PM
It ended up reminding me that I need to send my accountant something to send to HMRC by the end of the month...
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19 Jan 2021 6:54PM
He who hesitates .... never a wise thing to procrastinate with a health issue or the tax man. Oddly enough many of us cannot help it . Me included .
Whole books are written on the subject matter ....the ruminations and fear over nasty outcomes is usually met
with disbelief and hopefully a bit of humour after one has finally got on with it (As Mistere put it ) once we

finally give in we realize our incredulity at not having gone on with it sooner. Somewhat of game we play with ourselves ...and inevitably others ...
The model reminds me of a spy caught out alone in a confined space ...Big brown eyes that say volumes ,
I have been procrastinating getting my back shot with steroid s again ...time to get off the couch !
Cheers Walt


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