As most of you know, I had a heart attack last week. I'm at home recuperating - under doctors orders. It all feels weird. I have to rest but I cannot see (or really feel) the scar.
What also feels weird is after spending all my wake hours (and some in my sleep) on here, I have to step back and "get better". Life will not be the same. I have tablets now for good. I will always wonder what's going on. Like a drug it's impossible to keep away...and after a sleep or rest I wander back into ePHOTOzine, carefully drifting through.
I see the kind messages, and blogs, and enjoy the words. I glance headlines of forums threads, that I would normally read. I see signs of trouble and where I would normally wade in, I shy away. It's all too odd. But at every point I realise those few angry people with angry threads that I've so often got wrapped up in are partly why I'm currently closing my eyes and thoughts.
To all those who've sent cards and messages thanks ever so much.
To anyone causing my team grief right now, at a time when they could do without it, please stop, and ask yourself...WHY?